For over a week I’ve had this idea for a new series of paintings. I’ve been so excited and inspired. I’ve filled pages in my journal with sketches, details and ideas… BUT as soon as I get home from work I can not get myself to work on it. All day I daydream of when I’ll be home and have the time to create but when the time comes it feels like torture and I can’t make myself begin. I’ll sit at my drawing table until I give up.
I think I’m afraid that it is not going to come out as I envision. And with the way I work, when something doesn’t come out as I see it in my head I’ll completely abandon it, rather than rework it. This is in complete contrast to what I know I should do, according to my art bible, Art & Fear.
Today I FINALLY went into my studio and started working. It started out great. I took this picture above on my camera phone, and although it’s not great quality, I really loved how it looked at this stage. I continued on and everything seemed to be fine. I was using acrylic paints and all sorts of different techniques to get textures for a background. Everything was going perfectly until I reached a stage which, according to this book, I needed to run the canvas under warm water with some soap ANNNNNNND I rubbed a little too hard and my painting started peeling off. Next thing I knew, I just said screw it and continued to blast it with hot water and peeled off the entire painting till I was back to a white canvas.
Gah! Back to square one. I hope I can go back at it and restart fresh and finally have something to share here soon. Keeping my fingers crossed.